This Is Not Reality, This Is A Dream

Merry Christmas Guys :))

2011-12-26T22:39:00.000+10:00

Sorry i havent been updating my blog, been in England. just casually. hah. Well, im back in Msia now for my semester break.

This was Christmas Eve ;)

my fav, grilled garlic and butter king prawns <3

Sherlene Cheah's photography

Then after dinner with the fam, i went out with my crazies <3

MERRY CHRISTMAS LOVELIES, hope you've had an amazing one.

shayshay

A close friend of my once said...

2011-10-20T05:02:00.001+10:00

"it's easy to pretend to be invisible or invicible by choosing to be alone when you dont have to be, it's easy to slip away and hope everything else will fade away, cause you think you're getting away, if you're bent on self destruction though, you're on the right path, and he's already drenched you in gasoline, it just seems like you want him to tie you up and all that's left is for him to throw the match, no one's going to put out a fire you let burn when others warned you not to play with fire. I think you'll turn out smarter, or at least i can hope so" -AK

I'm in London wahoo

2011-09-14T23:48:00.001+10:00

Best thing I bought so far .. My neon Orange skirtt, hah.

Lol i know this is a slack-im just posting-this-because-im-guilty-for-not-blogging-post but., yess ive beeen supah busyyyy. Will update you guys soon ;) xx

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Destroy what destroys you

2011-09-04T02:56:00.008+10:00

She’s like smoke. You think you’re seeing her clearly enough, but when you reach for her there’s nothing there.

-Ryu Murakami-

Im feeling like a whiny emo, so here goes.

You wake up day after day. You drown yourselves in your misery and loneliness, you make yourselves believe you are depressed, you want more, you complain, you are only human; we seek refuge in the darkness and maybe one day we';; wake up from waking up in pain and realizeu the only one hurting us is ourselves.

Disturbing.

and then theres love....

A distressed ambivalent unidentified schizophrenic character with serious personality disorders ; Love

What about love ? Does love exist? Does love make everything better?

Romantic love between sexes who do not share the same genetics,, IS it love , or is it lust? Can love ever be pure? Does it exist, or does it exist because we want it to exist. Do we fall in love, or fall in love with the idea of being in love because we want it to exist?

^ when we question reality, all we are served with is disappointments. Thats why, to me, growing older and growing up becomes so painful, because dreams that were so big become so small and insignificant. We become realistic, and the magic of the unknown possibilities fade.

For now, All i know is that when i fall in
love, i wanna fall in love young, once and forever

As time goes on, you’ll understand, what lasts, lasts; what doesn’t, doesn’t. Time solves most things. and what time can’t solve, you have to solve yourself.

-Haruki Murakami

dang these Murakami guys are so w!S3

Cheryl's Last Day in KK

2011-09-03T17:54:00.001+10:00

wow its already September, my 9 month break in KK is almost over...

but anyway

This was about two weeks ago.. This is Cheryl Lo, one of my favourite girls

just a picture update !! will blog again tonight, im feeling inspired.. gotta love tumblr!!

visit! BOOBS &&&& THE GOOD THINGS IN LIFE.

will be back !
shayshay xx

Random rants 2

2011-08-28T01:49:00.004+10:00

press play, itll calm your tortured intestines and soul very vigorously.. trust me.

Every time i tell myself to embrace the very minimal positive energy in me,, .. it lasts for a day at most. I love dwelling in the darkness. I just love it, its comfortable there.. like nothing could harm you even more. Thing is... i'm not sad or unhappy at all. I have the perfect family, i'm not disabled physically in any way, i have wonderful friends that genuinely care, someone that will listen to my each and every complain <3 and really, nothing else could be better ...

5 things that would really excite my soul right now.

1. Disneyland.
2. a 1000 pound H&M voucher in my purse
3. an open gym ( its 11.19 pm now)
4. my boyfriend on the next flight back home
5. for me to digest that instead of whining and complaining, there are kids in India, that dont even have a bed to sleep on right now.

Random rants

2011-08-26T17:45:00.000+10:00

Whether you like it or not it is a game and will always be a game. So when you let yourself be vulnerable to that somebody, you lose. They already have that power over you that can and will destroy you. Traditions are there for a reason, if you want a guy let them pursue you, not the other way round because really, it's just a game and once you let your emotions get a hold of you.. You lose, game over ..

But if you find someone that feels the same way, and you know from deep down that it'll be worth it to put yourself in that vulnerable spot ,, being scared is only the start of your happiness..

Who am I to say anything anyway.. Haha

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Your daily dosage :3

2011-08-15T01:32:00.001+10:00

dont you unrotate your pictures just to annoy? :3

Eric Prydz : Pjanoo

2011-08-12T16:07:00.000+10:00

old but gold. my theme song of the day.

Half of My Summer

2011-08-09T04:20:00.000+10:00

What did i do all Summer?

- Wendy came from Brisbane to Malaysia.. so took her around..

--Went to Karambrunei, Nexus.

- Wendy taking her tourist photos

-I really like this picture (below)

- Bella & I had a lovely bubble bath

-Our pool villa was just a short distance to the beach, which was convenient

- We went to Gayang Seafood Restaurant and Matthew had an epiphany to order 6kg of soft shelled crabs, and he did. Needless to say 7 of us could not finish the 10++ dishes, softshelledcrab excluded.

- Naite time ;)

hahahhaahhahaahhaha hah

ANOTHER OCCASION//

-brought Wendy to Pulau Manukan

-this is while waiting for the boat in Sutera Harbour Jetty

- Pulau Manukan is just a ten minute (more or less) boat ride from a jetty 8 minutes away from my house.. just FYI :)

-mmhmmm. the abs right? ridiculous...

-Leaving the island// the sky is so beautifull

ANOTHER OCCASION//

-Sunset bar is the loveliest place to have a casual date. Ask me where would i wanna go anyday in the time frame of 5-6 pm and i would suggest Sunset Bar second to the gym. ahah

-So, of course naturally, i'd bring Wendo there :)

-yeah i do realise im always eating :/ and in pictures.

-Everytime we went out, we ate, poor Wendy just couldn't understand our lifestyle and was always.. too full from the every hour eating..

ANOTHER OCCASION//

--Bella's Birthday!!

-Yeap, thats Bella.

-Meet Celeste

-And Kara

ANOTHER OCCASION//

--Bella's Farewell

-Went to LAVA. haha lol. but our hand signs, kinda.. FAILED.

- thats Joeyy!

- && Cheryl

I just had to post these pictures because they were taken with a legit DSLR, and i rarely have such good quality pictures although i do have a DSLR, which is so slack, i know..

but

You kno whats funny,

I didn't even take ANY of these pictures. harhar.

Hence, I don't have pictures of other life events..

btw, i really like this blog..

xx, shayshay

Little Dragon - Twice

2011-08-09T02:24:00.000+10:00

Track of the midnight

B & W

2011-08-08T02:37:00.000+10:00

Best : I found and bought this top that i saw on someone last night that appeared seemingly interesting

Worst : Guys who give you the silent treatment. like hello I'm not Jesus, I can't read your mind, I don't know what's wrong unless you tell me. Maybe you should develop some testes and not be afraid to demand or ..give some quality instructions if you want something done your way.

2011-08-08T01:18:00.001+10:00

You say that you love rain,

but you open your umbrella when it rains...

You say that you love the sun,

but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines...

You say that you love the wind,

But you close your windows when wind blows...

This is why I am afraid;

You say that you love me too...

-WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE

A New Beginning

2011-08-06T04:24:00.001+10:00

“I choose me. I choose to wake up day after day and try. I choose to fall asleep night after night and dream. I choose today, tomorrow, and all the days I’m given. I choose life. I choose now; my present and later; my future. I choose to fly, and when I cannot fly I shall walk. When my feet are too tired I will crawl. I choose to never give up no matter how hard things get. I choose to love. To give. To live. I choose to dream. To discover. To pick myself up over and over. To learn from my mistakes. To accept the flaws I have. I choose to be positive. I choose to smile. To laugh. To breathe. To leave behind my past. To cleanse my soul of negativity. To forgive. To live the life I’ve imagined. I choose to let go of my hate. I choose to hold on time and time again. I choose this life, this present, this me. I choose me everyday in every way. I choose me.”

—	Acoustic Imagery

hello

2011-07-31T06:46:00.000+10:00

hi, this is not shanna. obviously. im a friend of hers and i just wanna say that this girl is one of the nicest person that i had ever met in my 18 years of life. yea she gets a lil lost at times but she definitely has a great heart. i just feel like people should stop picking on her; just because she has her own way in living or maybe dealing with things does not make her a horrible person. sometimes, i feel like people are not giving her the enough credits that she deserves. shes just like every each and one of us, trying hard to find her own identity. and of course, no matter how many people out there hates her, shes loved. at least, by me.

xo, yvonne.

I have shocking news

2011-07-30T15:40:00.000+10:00

I just realized.. I'm not into fashion anymore ..omg ..

It may be true it may be a phase ..

But ... Wow.. I can't even admit it just yet.

I think my brain is playing mind games with me ..

I don't even bother dressing up anymore . Maybe Its cause I'm in KK but yeah just look ..

Swear to Megatron that the only time I'm not wearing thongs ( havainas .. Not lingerie) is when I'm going out for legit events // & •• just cause I must include pictures in every post harhar••

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Things that come in pairs x

2011-07-28T17:30:00.002+10:00

thought i share some of these imagery that greatly aroused my being

you can find more of them here [ c l i c k ]

Life Update

2011-07-26T05:37:00.000+10:00

I sweat (lol i went back to change it to swear , but i left it being sweat cause i found that to be a lil funny) to God i only function during the early hours before dawn..

my life be like ooooh ahhhhh ehhhh my laif be laike oooooh ahhh ehhhh * song fades*

um hi as much as i love you my dear Kota Kinabalu.... i need to disembark almost immediately

Every time i'm in KK, my routine disintegrates and i dissolve into a lazy slob of unproductive hormonal being. What have i been doing lately? THAT is the question.... because really, i should be feeding the children in Mongolia or building houses for the people in Japan but no my butt has developed an intimate rapport with my bed. So going to Mongolia would be a lil difficult...

And its too small really, you kno those times you just don't wanna see anyone you know, or worse, see someone of a particular distaste....mehhhh.. its like woah.. not again,...please evaporate..... whehhhhh -snookie wail-

Anyway, 7 more weeks, before im off to the UK.. on the other hand tho, i am devo as I had to pull out from the Miss Malaysia Universe 2012 finals :( well i reckon i had an upperhand because IB has definitely prepared me well in the construction of intelligent bullshit when preparing facts. heh

Pictures tomorrow... well not exactly...a few hours to be exact....

im going to bed now

night ducklings

shayshayy

x

hello :3

2011-07-25T15:45:00.007+10:00

Noob talk

2011-07-24T14:52:00.001+10:00

Mum : : I'm gonna send your sister to a work camp

Lil sis :: omg don't ! What if there's a massacre !!

Dad :: =.=

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KL with Wendy

2011-07-24T03:22:00.001+10:00

Too many late nights .. and waking up at 6am to pack is not a good idea...

noob faces tryna stay awake

passing out

still half dead

fooooddd. din tai fung.. yummy.

little penang.. ordered like the whole menu, but only took picture of this lol

getting our nails done.

thai foood. my favvv <3

pavillion

wendy with her exotic rambutan

ooooh lala

met max from brisbane!!

before going out..

sunway pyramid hotel

wendy makes me look supah fats :(

my taiwan supahstah!

photo credits from wendy <3

had a great time withchu. miss you already wenwen

Just PMS, no biggie.

2011-07-02T04:56:00.001+10:00

okay im back. im happy again. lol

i swear its the hormones. damn estrogens.

theres this amazing person that almost leaves the sweetest comments (read below) , always so lovely and encouraging. i wanna say thanks so much whoever you are, you really do always make my day a lot more glittery yayy. hahah

"please DON'T go! :( I love you blog a lot , it's very diverse , you blog about a wide variety of topics :)But I actually understand , most of the time people are too worried about their own problems that they really couldn't care less about others. They'll listen to you rant but secretly they just can't wait to talk about their own problems. We all go through those moments , those moments when we don't know how to get out of some sort of maze , I feel lost too , really unsatisfied and I'm struggling too to find out what I want but I think it's because we're young , for now I'll blog to vent and listen to music so loud it'll make my ears bleed , that is how I deal because I know now more than ever that people aren't the solution to my problems. However that being said I want you to feel better , really. :) You are gorgeous and you're really funny , nice but straightforward to retarded haters. You have a lot of things going for you and if anything you should think about those things <3"

the very lovely persons link . click here.

amazing blog. amazing writing.

"There comes a point where you have to realize that someone is just injecting nothing but poison into your life." - http://2lipsticksandabanana.blogspot.com/

Hiatus

2011-06-26T05:42:00.001+10:00

Nobody cares about your problems and nobody will. Everyone is trying to figure out life for themselves. Most of the times your worries and issues are just entertainment and more than always, they somehow come around and haunt you. So when im sad, i dont talk, i dont wanna speak to everyone,

i dont wanna talk to anyone cause then when they ask whats up with you . i dont know what to tell them.. i dont know why ive been so lost this past two years., its not even because of a person, or a situation or environment.

im really just upset with myself, so how am i going to tell you that. The only thing i do best is walk away so as persual i casually push everyone away and that will come and eff me up in future but really i cant do this...

im just going to disappear. 

i need to be alone

what a coincedence... selena gomez..

2011-06-22T01:56:00.004+10:00

So do they have a how to launch teen stars guide or something in Disney?? First you be on Disney, then you start singing, then you make movies like this, then you date the cutest male teen-star around( Aaron Carter and Bieber) .. then you start being a partyslut lol im just kidding.

...or maybe Selena is just a fan of Hilary Duff lol

BUT seriously, even the plots are almost similar..

In Lizzie McGuire, Hilary gets mistaken for someone famous, In Monte Carlo Selena ALSO gets mistaken for someone famous/rich. :O

WHAT A COINCIDENCE

But seriously, no hate guys. I think she's pretty and all and I really wanna watch Monte Carlo as well. oh yeah, and i actually kinda really like her new song 'Who Say's. sighh...

and her dresses..

and her latest outfit to the MMVA is pretty delish ; with an edgy but feminine champagne mini with gorgeous purple pumps.

Here's the trailer kind of :)

xx
im out
shayshay

Shanna the Same indecisive dreamer

2011-06-21T14:29:00.001+10:00

i wanna be an actress..

i wanna live in someone elses life for awhile, come out of that , then be another person

and repeat

its would be amazing to be able to dive into a completely different realm that does not belong to you.. sighhh

how would i ever get there...

but no want will ever hire me now. cause i slammed a car door in my face and will have scars for life. whehhhhh :( :(

love photos like this ^^

kay im out

shayshay

Consequences of living in a small town...

2011-06-18T14:26:00.000+10:00

SO especially when youre living in a small town with limited populators, like Kota Kinabalu,, people WILL talk ++ add like their own spices.

This is briefly how the conversation goes // popular lines ++ bullshit that i've gathered over the years..mmm

be patient while the GIFs load, swear its worth it..

1." omg she is such a bitch, ugh she looks like one, she must be one , didn't you hear... ++she like pulled Ash's hair in the gym"

2. "omg did you hear Tom and Jerry broke up and Mustapha and Jerry are sexing it up. they are like together.. like only 2 days after Jerry broke up with Tom, 0mG ch3aterrrr,++ and I saw Jerry like lingerie shopping the other day :O"

3. "omg did you hear...Shanna and Matilda are having some kinda cat fight drama. Apparently Matilda like talked about Shanna behind her back and like ++Camile wants Matilda's boyfriend, like omg so much drama. and dude, Matilda's like FAT now... "

" omg what a sluz, i am going to fight her!....on twitter... and trash blog her ..." =.=

4.a) "omgg tinko is such a slut. did you see her at the club. she like drinks @lcoh0l "

b) " SHE PARTIES.. OH MY GOD, SHE Iz WILD. ++ she broke her heels curz she was so0o drunk"

lol like seriously....

If you wanna talk , fine, just leave out the parts that you dont know for sure

lol and especially, haters that leave shit like on formspring.... =.=

dont be a cowards and go anon -.-

like seriously...

The last time i remembered, nobody asked for your opinion :)

LOL of the day.

2011-06-16T14:03:00.000+10:00

HAHAHAH

like tik tok and....lol cant think.. of other songs atm, can you?

LOL MAN

BLOG UNDER RENOVATION

2011-06-16T02:50:00.003+10:00

BLOG UNDER RENOVATION

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Links and life

2011-06-15T17:40:00.003+10:00

Hi guys ..

Ive always loved links, so ive created heaps of pages/links for you itchy finger lovelies to click on. hahahah. Still adjusting things round but.. im thinking of clearing my blog up so it will be...neat.. hahah look up ^^ the pages there... click click click

SO im just going to bombard you guys with what has been happening with me / whats on my mind etc etc

My Weekends,

[as can be found on my FB page]

^^ thats joey btw

Click to enlarge, but dont think you wanna .but harhar. my blog. my faice :D

hmmm, i think i left my eyes in the green green vegetable garden :/

I miss my boarding school friendssss :(

like Miss CheyyyChey and SHoko Tanaka and like Mikailah and like Teckla and like Sandra and oh God, everyone.. :(

Anyone who lives in KK that hasn't been to Sunset Bar @ Tg Aru Shangrilla Hotel, Kota Kinabalu, should go, its so beautiful anddd chilll

mind you, the photos are taken with just my iphone..

And and who knew, it would be so so entertaining//wonderful catching up with old friends.

Ronald, Ben, Elaine and Daryl

Seww sorry i look like a addict drug abuser, im sick aite?! hahahaha.

A picture from Wendy, with me putting on her Green tea jelly eye mask [no i do not have a black/blue/green/punched eye] @ Schoolies in the Gold Coast, I MISSS ALL MY AUSTRALIAN HOBBITS T.T

I wonder where that shirt went,, i miss it :(

SO ive started working at a Law Firm, harhar. My not very profeshional outfit

Ralph Lauren Pink Striped Long Sleeved Shirt, Some Denim Vest, Topshop Leggings and Pink Heels from Maylana (?)

Not the most fashionable, lawyer-ry outfit but lawl, CBF DOOD....

&& i still ask why they dont take me seriously LOL.

So this is the introduction of my scattered thoughts, the fire alarm is ringing :s i better go

5 things i have to say

2011-06-07T01:37:00.017+10:00

part 1

1. most of the time i have nothing interesting to say.

2. blake livelys nude pictures omg

3. wtf. obedient wives club?!

oh yeah . dude who knew Kim Kardashian is engaged.

AWWW SOH KYUTE. i want my boyfriend to be able to do that to me :/ shes like freaking miniature in comparison to him

1. Yeah im such an interesting person, i solely blog about nothing except myself. very amazing. harhar. Hence ill include some celebrities in #2 whose lives people are much more interested in learning about.

2. So apparently like usual she told the press that her nude scandals were fake. Then the releaser got maddd. so he released moar.

[click here for more -while it last] or just ask me lol.

3. PRESIDENT OF *OBEDIENT WIVES CLUB, ARE YOU JUST PLAIN DUMB or ARE YOU THAT SEX CRAVED YOUVE GONE MENTAL.

* a club started by muslim wives teaching other muslim wives how to be sex slaves and whores to their husband so the husband wont cheat on them

um hi, what phucking century are you even living in ?! its not the stone age honey

"training wives to be whores so youre husband won't cheat on you?!"

a) are you freaking sirius, do you seriously want to wear a french maid costume while you're frying vegetables?!

b) what would other countries see Malaysia as

c) do you actually see yourself as such trash to be degraded to that level.

d) are you really that insecure

e) and do you reallly think that your husband would chose a 40 year old wanna-be whore or a pretty 25 year old pro.

i think the 800 members who have joined this slightly revolting (pardon my sarcasm) club, should divorce their husband already. i mean wtf if my husband expected that of me, his testes will be distraughtly crucified after i have juiced them to the size of raisins.

Malaysia might as well open 24/7 pro-bono brothels right?!?!

its equivalent of saying that the country has to open a pro-bono brothels in every region so rape will be reduced. WTF IS THIS!?

.....reckon the founder is just bitter and in denial that her husband is cheating on her with some little cute thing

part 2 [ to be continued]

4. *insert some sentimental emotion things i have to say

5. omfg people just piss me off

comment and follow

xx Shay

CHECK IT

2011-06-05T20:26:00.008+10:00

MAGIC POTS OF GOLD WILL SLIDE DOWN RAINBOWS IF YOU CLICK HERE.

lol no its just my "fashion" - [not exactly] blog.

http://fattythebarbie.tumblr.com

lolsies. i juzt had to. harhar

You know.. i intend to have this special tingly feeling bond with my readers sew im gonna invade your deepest depth.. lolsies. ok that doesnt make sense and sounds wrong :/ but yes, nexxt time u listen to these songs, youll think of me. muahahaha.

this is what makes my heart smile, my playlist at the moment

1. Skin- Rihanna

2. Ghosting - Freelance Whales

3. Teenage Crime- Adrian Lux

4. The Thrill ( Walking on a Dream)- Wiz Khalifa

5. Alien -Tokio Hotel

6. Slow Dancing in a Burning Room - John Mayer

7. Gone- Bei Maejor

8.Island- Pendulum

9. Come With Me - Florida

10. Lights (Eye Dubstep Remix)- Ellie Goulding

11. Shelter (Death to the Throne Remix) - The XX

12. How deep is your love- The Birds and the Bees

13. Anything You Synthesize - The American Dollar ---- this is the best song ever if you need inspiration or just wanna be a cranky remising persian cat.

14. Your Ex- Lover is Dead - Stars

15. Wake Me Up When September Ends - Greenday

16. Loves To Blame- Joel & Luke

half of my playlist, will post more in the near future ❤

More loving advice, so you wont become a persian cat ...

xx Shay

Useless Rants

2011-06-04T15:43:00.009+10:00

I am happy

i am content but

I am doing nothing with my life.

Shouldve just stayed in Brisbane,

I miss the people.

But i really wanna go to the UK as well

What should i do?

someone tell me where to start

what do i want to be

should i go on the reality show

or should i go to uni

i want to go to uni

i mean i AM going to uni

but i want to do the reality show as well

but cause im going to uni ill regret for the rest of my career that i didnt do the reality show

because to me law < entertainment industry

nobody even sees me as a lawyer lol

i am so confused

i dont wanna disappoint my parents

but im the epitome of disappointments anyway

why am i even human

i should just be a decorative painting on the wall

maybe shit wouldnt get so real then

whatttheshit am i talking about

i need to get skills

why am i so useless

can i be more productive

can i be skinny please

im wasting so much time

what the hell are you doing with your life shanna cheah.

im at that stage youre happy but you start to question too many things.

why what how when etc etc

ive concluded that ;

maybe.... i should just become a Persian cat

justin bieber agrees

FAQ

2011-06-02T21:23:00.004+10:00

you know....

No wonder they say stay away from negative people. the freaking negavitiy does rub off .

i like being in my little bubble . im always happy in there

i havent raged in awhile/ i forgotten how

btw, really,,

people who ponder upon irrelevant obscure thoughts about me and bombard my formspring and get even more curious when i disregard your questions, this is for you.. :)

T-Thoughts , N- Newsflash, R-Respond

T :Omg all she ever does is talk about herself

N:no shit, this is MY blog, of course i'll talk about MYself.

T: OMG you post so many pictures of yourself.

R: reallly? i didnt realise that ! :/ but

Like i said, my blog, my face. get it right trolls.

T. youre ugly as fawk.

N: k

T: Where are you right now?

R: Malaysia, Sabah, Kota Kinabalu

T: why, on holiday?

R: nope, finished with highschool in Aus, going to the UK

T: your fashion sucks

R: um

AND

T: why are you so wild

N: Honey, just because i know how to have fun// can hold my alcohol ,this doesnt make me a lewze beech. And well the cultural standards really does affect this question a great deal, because in Malaysia, 3 straight shots +high heels+ dancing = too wild to be a female=never gonna be girlfriend/wife material. :S

T: why did you break up with Darren

(seriously, i get like 500 of these reaccuring species of questions on formspring)

R: really non of your business, but thats what happens when a tornado meets a volcano. LOL. no really, shit just goes down everytime were together so they say its best we go our separate ways. ( lol chill the phak down stalkers its lyrics from love the way you lie )

T: why are you such a bitch

R: you dont know me k :( but really

SO anymore question you wanna flood my formsprings with?

for the rest of my lovely non hater readers.

i love you too. xoxo, Shay ❤

ps: CLICK HERE ❥(where i get my orgasmic pictures )

Random Images post 2

2011-05-31T05:00:00.007+10:00

Typical Sunday

2011-05-29T19:57:00.007+10:00

Had so much fun with my girl Joey last night lolskies. We somehow always manage to s q u ee z e fun out of a situation. harhar.. You know, after a night out its always such a fun thing to wake up real early for church. woo. If you dont get the tone then youre really smart. If you still don't get it, im sorry you can't be my friend.

Then after church went to Tong Hing cause my mother thinks the house has NO food. Swear to God she bought 100 apples and like so much chicken and salmon for me. Because according to my family, im overweight :/

" yeahh, good work but at least 4 more inches has to come off.. get to the gym N A O" lol typicalle.

So went home and emptied the numerous plastic bags into our three fridges which cant even close anymore, and found like 14 packs of spagetthi in the cupboard, and my beautifulle mother still bought two more. Are you sirius? Do we really need that much pasta mother.... =.=

Then i slept. in my lovely furry white bed. Right now, im suppose to be going to the gym, but at 6 the gym in Sutera Harbour is really crowded, and i dont like fending off middle-aged women for the treadmill, so i don't know if i'm going.

haters gonna hate. why dont i care. eat my faeces . ❥❥

Anyway, Im really fascinated by Arissa Cheo's style, she's got the whole princess but edgy thing going on. Blog link here ❤

Someone please get me these AM sunnies. pleaseeeeeee

http://www.ameyewear.com/

Bruce

Ali

Kami

Clothing

2011-05-26T20:53:00.009+10:00

Was browsing thru tumblr and i was like ooooh kyute, wait, looks familiar... :P

btw all my pics are hella old so forgive the nubness

LOL because i liked my make-up that night. and surprisingly, it stayed the same the whole night.

ANYWAY,

CLICK HERE CLICK HERE CLICK HERE

xoxo

10 Facts About Me

2011-05-26T02:56:00.007+10:00

1. I want a bestfriend.

Im sick and tired of them who just want to phat me over

2. I regret being such a mindless raccoon to my childhood best friends and lovers.

They were sweethearts and the best i've ever had.

3. I swear i'm a legitimate vampire.

I crave meat, preferably red. I have legit fangs. and

4. I'm freaking sirius about #3, cause I can turn my emotions on and off. :P

The perks of being a vamp i guess :/ hahah but seriously, when i care, i care so much the hurt is paralyzing, but when i choose not to, i don't notice the world.

5. I have sweaty palms.

Its a legit medical condition, not making it up i swear.

6. I have 1 blogspot, 2 tumblrs, and 2 private blogs :)

wanna know ? ;)

7. I joined two beauty pageants this year. LOL i know.

got short listed in them two, but i cant go to one of them because i have a contract with the other one :/

8. I have an agenda for #7

I don't exactly fancy being a beauty queen, but the publicity will help me with my fashion design ,hosting, etc etc

9. People always always always screw me over.

I hardly believe in friendship anymore. ( i love my friends in AUS tho <3)

10. I love my family more than ill ever show.

If you guys are reading this, note note note this :)

SWAGGGG

talk to me

i like my hair today

2011-05-21T04:15:00.005+10:00

its flat and obedient

Random Images

2011-05-20T18:08:00.008+10:00

Brisbane

2011-05-18T03:06:00.004+10:00

I miss Australia and the pretty places, and the pretty clothes that can be found everywhere..

Contemporary Chanel

2011-05-11T20:21:00.001+10:00

Contemporary Chanel by ShayB featuring a helmut lang jacket

Crinkle top
$148 - aliceandolivia.com

Helmut lang jacket
ly.st

Supertrash printed short
60 EUR - welikefashion.com

Shoes
399 SEK - nelly.com

Chanel vintage shoulder bag
$1,000 - amrag.com

Old Navy beading jewelry
$9.50 - oldnavy.gap.com

Chain jewelry
1.340 EUR - stylebop.com

Linea Pelle wrapped jewelry
$65 - lpcollection.com

Isharya gold plated jewelry
110 GBP - net-a-porter.com

Growing Up

2011-05-05T04:47:00.009+10:00

"with age comes responsibility" pshhhhhht

i hate it , i hate growing up.

because you realise that you have to consider the consequences

because living in the moment can no longer justify your actions

because what you do for yourself now concludes the rest of your life

because you notice that you freaking suck because you have yet to achieve anything

because the somebody you were meant to be, has to surface sometime soon, but is no where to be found

because figuring out who you are is still very much a blur

Truth is nothing gets easier . if anything, the complications in life only increases. This should be written in the warning section in your birth certificate.

I JUST WANNA LIVE IN DISNEYLAND AITE, just leave me there and never let me grow up :(

i was such a happppyy babeyy , they used to say there was never a moment where I wasn't smiling.

Those days

2011-05-04T15:21:00.000+10:00

Make up and Asians

2011-05-01T23:49:00.010+10:00

So apparently, asian chicks are notorious for being a troll underneath all the make up .

[holymoly. how the hell does she do that. I know about the fake lashes, eyeliner, lenses but shit dude how did she get her eyes x3 bigger than the non made-up one]

This is Promise Phan, Michelle Phan's ( the famous youtube make up guru) sister. Make up seriously can change your face huh..

Her normal face post make up

Adriana Lima

Miquel Jacksun

Jessica Alba

Angelina Jolie

I guess asians can manipulate our faces more than whites as our asian features are softer and not as bold , so we can like draw it bigger or move our noses around lol wtf.

oh yeah DUDE, freaking colour lenses, seriously, can improve how a chick looks.

all these girls are so ugly before make up etc but are decent looking after.

How COINCIDENTAL dewd. Xiaxue ( Singapore's most famous blogger) just posted a video of herself, doing her make up. Included in the video, is her normal, non-caked up face.

no offense Xiaxue, but you look slightly ugly pre make up,

In my next post, imma specially go buy colour contacts and fakie lashes so i can post my very own before after photos :)

Reckon i'd look ridiculous, but oh well

and alot of guys say they prefer their girls without make up, why is this so?

What to blog about next?

2011-04-23T03:31:00.005+10:00

1. Why I hate Asians?

2. UFO sightings.

3. Try hards and trying too hard

4. The KotaKinabalu, Malaysia style Gossiping/Partying - lifestyle in general. - inspired by Joey Jing

WHY THE OUT OF NORM BIEBER FEVER ?!

2011-04-21T02:21:00.012+10:00

WHY JUSTIN?!

“It’s very difficult to write down in words what makes somebody special. But when they walk in the room it could be presence, it could be their voice, it could be the effect they have on other people, I guess Justin Bieber’s a good example of someone who has the ‘X factor.’ But you recognize it when you meet him or you see him perform, and like I said, he has that incredible effect on his fans – and that means he has it. And I’ve seen other people his age look almost identical to him who haven’t got it. It comes from within I think.” - SIMON COWELL

JUSTIN BIEBER

-came from a small town in Canada

-single parented

-lived in low income housing and never been on a plane before he met his manager

-plays four instruments without lessons

yeap, that Justin Bieber

-the fifteen year old that went platinum in the shortest period of time

-had all his songs go into the Billboards in his FIRST album

-has a documentary made after only having this career for 2 years ( Michael Jackson took 10 years)

- had 2 grammy nominations by the age of 16

-has had two tours by the age of 17

ultimately,

IS KNOWN BY ALL AND HATED MY MANY.

I bet all of you are like holy####?*! . WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU SHANNA?!

[MAKE SURE TO CLICK AND WATCH ALL MY LINKS]

Alot of you are wondering how am I this crazy about this teen adolescent, JUSTIN BIEBER.... Well let me tell you why...

Honestly, yes honestly, I admire and respect him as a person, It legit does NOT have anything to do with his appearance if thats what you guys are thinking!! Although yes Im a sucker for pretty boys and his pretty eyes, and nice smile does make you go awwww once in awhile [thank god he CUT his hair - looks so much better] ..... but in all seriousness, what I fell for is his personality, charm and ultimately how he treats people and his postive energy in for life. Furr real.

THIS IS MY ANALYSIS AFTER SPENDING DAYS WATCHING EVERY JB YOUTUBE VIDEO IN EXISTANCE. From hollywood reports to interviews in Japan right down to when he was in Brazil. ( Have you guys seen the Malaysian Flash Mob? Kudos to them! Good Effort!!)

1. His 'mad swag'

First off, Justin is a mega-flirt naturally, but not in a bad way. Its just so cute, he has a natural amazing charisma that CASUALLY ( not threatening in any way) draws people towards him. Alot of fan girls call it his swag, and yes trust me, after watching all and any interview containing JB on Youtube, I gotta admit, this kid's has got mad swag. He is just SO smooth with the ladies and can always turn an awkward situation into a hilarious moment even with gay male interviewers.

watch this, im serious, it wont be a waste of time, promise.

Honestly, this kid has more game than anyone I've ever met.

2. How he is firm with his personal beliefs and moral values.

Who doesn't agree that Justin Bieber is one of the most influential people today.

I mean he does have the world at his feet at the moment despite being only 17.

He owns Hollywood,

-Usher and Justin Timberlake fought over him.

-Got kisses from Cheryl Cole, Rihanna, Kim K and Katy Perry on his demand lol. Which other male isn't jealous? [source, source, source]

-Has collaborated with Ludacris, Soulja Boy, Wyclef Jean, P Diddy, Chris Brown, Jaden Smith & Willow Smith, Sean Kingston, Drake etc etc

-Every other celeb wants to use him for publicity

-Presidents and ministers want to meet him to get him involved with political issues .[source]

-Even his body guard Kenny Hamilton is more famous than alot of celebrities

- He owns(figuratively speaking) Youtube, Twitter and facebook

~just by putting Justin Bieber as a title on Youtube or any website and you'll get a million hits.

~ just by getting re-tweeted by Justin Bieber you will get you 1000 twitter mentions in less than 24 hours.

~ his tweets are re-tweeted more than Obamas lol

AND

- his hair that he cut off, that was put on auction, has BODYGUARDS && was sold off for 40 ++ k USD. [source]

-- which went all to Charity beeteedubs!

yeah you get me.

HOWEVER, he did not sway nor succumb to the world going all druggo and drunk 24/7. Justin is a Christian, and I honestly belief he is heaven sent and secretly conducting subtle evangelism everywhere he goes.

Why ?

- There's clips of him praying alot in his new movie, Never say Never.

- He has songs titled 'Pray' and 'Speaking in Tongues'

- He once said his role model is Job from the Bible

-He always includes/thanks God in interviews and always repeats that everything is a blessing in his interviews.

eg:

" At the end of the day, you have to remember why you're here and it was Him that put me in this position"

"If you take yourself more seriously than God then thats a problem"

-In the movie Never Say Never, there are so many scenes of him and his mother praying.

I reckon Justin and his mother thinks its important to let fans witness how he puts God first in his life

Further emphasizing how significant religion is in his life, Bieber expressed his frustration towards the disrespectful paparazzi in Israel, (link) when he visited the sacred areas that Jesus walked through/ bathe in on his twitter.

Although right now he is the epitome of fame, he doesn't stop being grateful and tries to live a life with good values.

Not only do i have respect for him on the above, Its so admirable that he excepts his job as a role model in this generation and tries to show good examples at all times. [ JB on alcohol ] Its certainly not easy to do that in Hollywood, when what sells is sex, alcohol and drugs these days.

I haven't even got started about what he does and can do for charity [ which is awfully alot ].. which i'm not going to go into depth because the media always includes charity to make a public figure seem more likable and that so cliche.

3. He treats people with respect.

That is why he has one of the largest, most loyal, craziest, best fan army.

even though he is as busy as he is, he takes time to maintain relationships with his fans -- whatta sweetheart

[HIS MALAYSIAN FANS] - a Malaysian flashmob -- good effort guys!

No doubt he is hilarious, always cracking jokes every few seconds but he always treats other people with respect, and is never rude... although he goes to 183 interviews a day and is asked the same question over and over again.

I know I'd be like GTFO my turf nigz, you're annoying! - lol maybe i'm just easily annoyed but..then again, thats me.

Justin on the other hand, knows what its like being nobody

and how by answering a question by a fan can make their day.

And even though he is definatelyy the most famous person in Hollywood, he doesn't act like a diva or that he is superior to everyone. Maybe sometimes he does get annoyed at the papparazi interfering and digging in his personal life but who wouldn't? If I had 30 cameras in my face all the time I would be the most anal PMS-ed time bomb walking the planet.

He as a teen has to put in extra efforts making decision because he is such an icon. He can not make random Hollywood decisions because he always makes it clear he wants to set an example, a good one. You got to give him a thumbs up, cause you do realise he's only a 17 year old, teenage boy.

- A recent 2011 Singaporean Press Conference - i love how he speaks to people, despite of the fame and 482759384 fans, he remains down to earth. How does he do it?

Maybe sometimes he appears cocky, but its not in an arrogant way he just has an attractive confident aura. [not saying it because I'm a fan, watch all my links and you'll see for yourself.]

THIS IS HILARIOUS. - was actually laughing out loud.

Not to mention how he handles dem LADIES.

Have you realized half his fans are females. Baha, I reckon you have.

- Justin Bieber on girls, its from his younger days, its not long ; watch it.

Doesn't even have to be how how he treats his girlfriend per say, but look how he holds, looks at and treats his baby sister. && of course his mother.

BUT yeap, he is still a mega flirt and exquisitely smooth.

watch this

I haven't even mentioned his crazy talent and sexy voice (now that it's cracked , lol). [LINK] and actually has quite amazing moves/footwork. Which is of course a huge bonus and reason why he is in Hollywood right now, but i reckon, it really comes from within. Its not because of his talent, but because of his pure heart.

&& guys , I think you guys wouldn't be able to complete a song after breaking a foot on stage. So stop calling him gay.

So what do you guys think of the Bieber? Does he deserve this life he has right now, or is he just a over emphasized marketing scheme?

BTW who knew he could rap! :o

Well, hopefully theres' not A PART TWO to this && lets all pray my FATAL Bieber Fever dies down aite?!

Spam :D

2011-04-19T03:54:00.006+10:00

i can never smile with teeth, my life is over.

all the haters go?!

" uh yeah sure beeeech"

and then they wanna eat the pony so they could turn them into raisins because they couldn't pluck the prunes that were copiously posh . Suddenly, she drank the vodka, and got confused.

my most attractive state. yeah? hell yeah.

Sherlene's Noob Photography

2011-04-18T04:20:00.006+10:00

random

Civilisation

2011-04-14T13:16:00.009+10:00

Hey guys, how you doin?

Felt like I haven't blogged 'normally' in ages. Right now, Im back in Kota Kinabalu, my hometown. Why? Well im waiting to go to Uni, in the UK in September.

Yes its quite awhile.. In the meantime, ive had lots of time to reflect on life and chill out but wow you have no idea how frustrated i get about KK. Seriously, like seriously, how is the country suppose to reach a decent standard nationwide if toilet can't even be kept functional , or worse, dry , to say the least. The bathrooms everywhere(hotels/decent tourist areas and homes excluded) are either broken or dirty and wet. Hey, not being racist or anything, its mostly the malay villagers and foreign immigrants that abuse the bawls out of the bathrooms, like yo how do you in all nature break a toilet seat. And seriously, why does it always seem like you took a shower in there leaving the whole location drenched. Can we at least pretend we're somewhat civilized. This is so embarrassing. As beautiful as Sabah is, do you seriously want people to still label this place as a third world county, come on guys. There's still so much quality, talents and beautiful people here, don't let them look down on us.

And if you follow my twitter, -( Shannachyeah)- and have been active recently, you would have noticed my latest obsession,, which is very embarrassing, i will blog more about in my next post. JUST SO YOU KNOW (CLICK)

Another thing, Im cycling on a highly optimistic path recently, I realise that life, is actually all about making others feel good, what's the point on only looking out for yourselves? When you get to give happiness to other people, now thats the way to go, because you feel even better than just feeling good. [ lol tryna be less selfish here alright, cut me some slack :P ]

Oh yeah, you know that feeling like you were meant to be something else, achieve something bigger, do something special, I don't know if anyone or everyone has that feeling but ever since i was 10 years old, that was all that was constantly in my mind. But being the natural pessimist i was, during my pre-teen years i started self-hating , with the : " you can't do anything well, you're hopeless" and then i started to believe it and dropped everything that I did. Big mistake .But hey it's okay, its not the end of the world, i'm still in my youth ( one reason I hate birthdays, its like i should have been achieving something by now).

Keep calm and be positive because its never to late to start. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF AND EVERYTHING WILL FOLLOW.

Comment and Follow :) i will return the favour.

Sincerely,

Shay B

my desktop is beyond cluttered

2011-04-06T20:53:00.007+10:00

New Challenge.

2011-04-05T13:55:00.007+10:00

So, i am legit mentally decaying here in KK. I have 6 more months before going off to the UK to study. So. im gonna assign myself a little task.

Everything I google up, I'll blog and summarize what I've gathered// my thoughts. lolsies.

google search : how to cook chicken healthily

"lol so many words and number. lol gay. "* close all tabs*

google search: how to cook chicken breast

"yeah maybe i could stir fry, omg effort. "

"Eggs. hmm. I want an omelette. Chicken omelette? gross."

google search : recipes for chicken

"zzzzZzzz"

"effort"

google search : michael buble cheating ?

I guess Michael would have cheated before but not necessarily with that girl, Tiffany Bromley. But Tiffy got her five minutes of fame and alot of publicity anyway because she has prove/pictures (below) , and the press would definitely eat it all up. lolskies. Tough luck Mikey.

Tiffy claimed that he had an affair with her for over ten years ( lady, lets say its true, ten years is ages, if he wanted to be with you he would have broken up with Emily. you're sad) while with Emily Blunt. I dunno, Tiffy was probably Bubbly's ex but i reckon Michael would have cheated on Emily before with other women anyway. Alot of famous rich men do, its a given. BUT who cares, he's still a sexy singer, and he'd be too much of a gentleman to reject/push away women that are shoving their triangles in his face.

photo she took of bubbly with her phone cam.

google search : Luisana Lopilato

(Michael Buble's Wife as of now)

Lucky bitch. They just got married. T.T

He could make her fall in love everyday all over again by just opening his mouth.

gah. they look so happy. gahhh. but lol kudos michael, she's very attractive.

i just thought this photo of michael bieber i came across was hilarious. ahah

READ for lolskeiz

lol i forgot about my chicken. brb . trying to go cook chicken.

testing out the DSLR lulskieez

2011-04-05T02:06:00.008+10:00

lol dress made me look like i have a massive tummy

okay a normal post finally.

2011-03-30T16:29:00.010+10:00

this post will be all about me.

Im eighteen. Im an adult. I have to carry an additional rather large suitcase labeled responsibility and reality. FML

But children, my existence is just a mere illusion.

what do you see when I enter your vision?

I am a ghost.

Am I real, am I true, am I really there at all?

I have a heart but everything I do portrays the cold dryness . I push everyone away. I panic, I turn my back abruptly.

I am selfish because I am vulnerable, I shut everyone out so they will never hurt me.

Self-sabotaging, this powerful defense mechanism, beyond control, it takes over and it destroys you. In return, it keeps you safe, it locks you in a cabinet, where all you have is yourself.

I hate birthdays. Every year i dread my birthday. I want to stay in my fantasies forever. I am a dreamer, i fantasize about life constantly. I love living in my dreams because in my dreams I am in peace with life. I choose being immature, I choose taking risk and chances. I choose living life fatally. You see, a child believes in everything, a child dreams fairytales that seems uncontrollably ridiculous to adults. A child believes everything is possible.

A child doesnt turn into an ambivalent monster like Shanna, because a child loves everyone and everything, a child unconsciously believe love always win. Shanna used to believe love always won. Shanna used to be mortal. Now Shanna is a ghost. Shanna will float away.

You want to love me , you do? Hate me . I guess its easier to hate. Hate me then. Turn that love into a passionate hate that will flood your hectic emotions and cure the pain.

I WANT TO SPAM YOU WITH MY FACE 2

2011-03-28T13:14:00.011+10:00

haha lol, this happens when im lazy to write. i need inspiration desperately :(

I WANT TO SPAM YOU WITH MY FACE.

2011-03-27T17:12:00.004+10:00

I AM 18 I WANT TO CRY :( I CAN'T DEAL WITH BEING AN ADULT JUST YET . T.T

this week is spam week. gear up niggas.

ehehh ehehehe

2011-02-24T22:33:00.000+10:00

true story

2011-02-21T03:44:00.001+10:00

emom

2011-02-18T04:04:00.005+10:00

I hate myself and who im becoming.

im so lost in my shield that i never let any emotions of care surface.

im terrified of the pain that would be possible once i start to care.

i dont want to be like this anymore. i want to be the 12 yr old girl i once knew. before all this hate. before all these dramas. before all the heartbreaks that are not even from romantic relaitonships. before i became....cold.

im not sorry i have nothing to say

2011-02-12T20:51:00.006+10:00

the question is

what can you do for yourself

and what do you want from people

live through this, and you won't look back,

go back to where you were. stay the hell away from here. be anywhere but here. this i beg of you.

accumulated vanity rape

2011-01-10T14:24:00.004+10:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR LOVES. (2011)

2011-01-03T01:16:00.004+10:00

(OMG i just typed 2010 just then. ahahah)

anyway,,, i havent been writing in awhile. and today i feel inspirational, well not to write, but just to update.

Its a new year, its time for changes U SELFISH BRAT, (me)

one of a very important resolution for me is to grow closer to my family. I really don't enjoy drifting, but i really can't help it. Im actually the most sensitive person and everything affects me. Seeing little things go wrong hurts so much, and the only way i deal with it is just to simply stop caring. Its been working so well for the past few years but people actually start to think my heart is well, non existent. Which is really not true, because relationships with my family is something that USED to be so special to me. But no worrries dude, im gonna work on it B)

dude i should actually really get decided on uni stuff. and oh man IB results come out, oh my lord. tomorrow.

and i realise i have like 30000+ hits now, but i actually dont evn know any of my READERS. how sad is that. :((

MAKE YOURSELF BE KNOWN PLEASE. comment or somethingggg?! <3

first. i dont care what you think. second. i dont care what you say. third. im so bored.

2010-12-15T02:16:00.003+10:00

no doubt but

2010-12-13T16:41:00.001+10:00

im so tired

2010-11-30T21:09:00.002+10:00

of people judging me

I have a predisposition to drama [part 1]

2010-11-15T12:28:00.008+10:00

I swear this post, you want to read. :) it includes everybody(in Malaysia only*) that have been in my past (drama).

*because Australia is awesome and drama free.

I DONT MEAN TO OFFEND ANYONE, JUST REMINISCING MY CHILDHOOD :)

Lets go alphabetically.... && if you know me at all, you'd definately know the list.

Hmmmm.. So i have this friend A1, we were pretty close back then, but due to boy issues that involved an ex of mine- which i totally understand, we weren't friends anymore for awhile. But now, its all good, i have forgiven her completely and we are now still friends.
Then there's Aunty Wannabe. I used to be really fond of her despite what others told me but one day she sent me a facebook message saying all my pictures portray me as a try-hard wannabe ( in my words, from what i understood)
There's A2, we are quite close now, but helll, I remember the Marina Court days where holymoly, drama was just overflowing everywhere like an obese lady's muffin top. But thank god we never had issues personally.
Theres B1, who was my close-friend-at-that-time's best friend. She and I had a fall out as well due to some misunderstanding which mainly revolved around that close-friend of mine. Then as usual, boy issues again, which got further complicated due to misconceptions. But its all good now. :)
Then B2, it was a shocker for everyone, not only myself. I remember everyone in the canteen looking at me like woaaaaaaah shit, him and her now?
And B3, i remember having a crush on him when i was in primary 3 and ze madre would tell me how handsome he was. But i guess it was a trend back then, because all the girls liked him. Funny days.
Then there's C1 and C2, an ex's sisters. Well I never had a problem with them and they are amazing. They've helped me through some tough times dealing with not only that ex.
Oh yeah i remember C3. hahahahahahaha. The Form 2 drama, where everyone was spreading rumours. Oh my, thinking back it was hilarious. Pure definition of peer presure.
And C4, i remember she used to bully me in primary 1. She used to pretend to give me injections with a mechanical pencil(she didnt actually press it into my flesh though). I some how enjoyed it. Does this mean im a masochist(not in a sexual reference), even from that early age? -.-
Oh man. Here comes the big D1. Everyone would know who is this. This is the epitome of my drama. I swear drama loves us. He was no doubt my bestfriend but I think every conversation we have would lead to an arguement, and that argument would somehow dissapear and leave us laughing and looking at everything as a joke , so there we go, another problem unresolved. It started when i was like 13 (?) then [insert person] then [insert another person+drama] then [insert person+ drama x500 ] then falling out with alot of people then we decided that this is bullshit. End.
Then there is E1. Have known her from Primary 2 ( 7 years old) up till now. She was my best friend in TTSS, but there was just too many misunderstandings and wrong information placed in between both of us. I swear the backstabbing during those days, not between, but about us(to separate us) was in such a high dosage, both of us just gave up. We are still friends, but have just grown out of the best friend stage, and things changed even more when I went to Brisbane.
I remember F1, she loved to lie back then. I presume she has stopped now (??). After all we've been through, I forgive her everytime and i still love her to bits. Could never understand though why she would always try to bring my relationship with others down. But thats in the past, and we are still friends now. woot.

*to be continued*

you should check back soon ;)

Im Going to Start serious blogging.

2010-11-11T20:24:00.014+10:00

Me Shoko, JJ and Joyce ate alot of Sushi, but thats not the point

I've been thinking and I want to start blogging seriously(i know i've said this before :3 ), like actually blogging with actual intellectual posts, elaborated by written words. Oh how i've missed typing. Wymun aka Munsterich got me interested in this blog the sixthseal. Does anyone know about this blog? Its prettty damn fascinating, well at least to me. I kid you not, his writing is superb, his english is amazing and his attitude towards life and all is hilarious.

To be honest, i've gotten inspired to write well, while describing my mundane daily activities, yet still be amusing. Anyway, I have to continue to maintain my written skills because of what happened yesterday.

Today people thought I was actually going to commit suicide and was put on watch so I couldn't go to the city. How RIDICULOUS is that? Do you know me at all? I of all organisms would be the last one who wants to die. I want to live, i want to experience, i want the thrills and the glamour of life. I of all people DO NOT wish to die, excuse you! Are you joking me? This is absolutely ludicrous (a word i've finally dictionaried after witnessing it a several times. So excited i used it today, but thats not the point).

Anyway, Im going to begin to study psychology in a short while. I have three more papers before I'm finished for the year. The we'll have Schoolies*.Woot. Im going up to the coast with all my closest friends. I trust them with my life, and I'm damnright looking forward to just chilling with them for a week. Then, back to Brisbane for a week, and back to KK finally on the 6th of December.

*Schoolies- a graduation celebration down at the coast, where friends try to enjoy each other's raw presence for a week. It's definitely not the same as described in the media, parents, relax.

I can't believe its November already. When i was younger, it used to be my favourite month because it was the coolest sounding month and because it meant it was almost the end of the year, but not. ahah.

Yesterday, i was pretty out of it, and i asked Shoko, if October was yesterday, or July. This does not even relate to anything, but i thought it was pretty relevant two minutes ago. So, I'm going to stop blabbing, and anyone who actually read my verbal diarrhea has my respect ;)

Yesterday we went to Southbank for Shoko's birthday thingo as well. We went on an eating fest as usual. First Max Brenners for chocolate(duh), Grill'd for chips then Ginga for sushi. [This is so unlike of me to be posting daily events, just bear with me guys, I'm a newbie at this. :D ]

This is Shoko, but thats not the point again,

The point is,

This is the point, well no, not really.

Today, I just felt the need to emphasis existentialism.

Shanna

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i got angry with tumblr

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are you ready for a shanna SPAM? i bet not

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HIGHSCHOOL IS ALMOST OVER

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MATHE EXAM IN ONE HALF AN HOUR. ZOMG

Update on Life

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This is how i spent my Halloween, with my best girls, Shoko and JJ, laughing till we get kicked out . You should see the videos. ahahah.

today,
I just finished all of my Biology papers. oh yeah....

hahahahhaahhah..

I am SO happy this few months, its ridiculous. I love this feeling. I love having my friends around. I love depending on me and only myself to make myself feel better. I love not feeling down. I love life? atm.

I will finish exams in two weeks, and then might go rent an apartment and live near the beach, with few of my close friends for a week, then chill for a bit, do a bit of shopping, then i'll be back in MSIA until i decide uni. Wow. it all seems to soon. I am so excited for the end of my IB journey. but im devastated by thoughts of leaving my friends :(

Anyway, i gotta go, im gonna go dress up as Cho Chang because the whole of grade 12 is dressing up as harry porter day. Pak is the owl, and he's white and fluffy. Christine is an elf, she is wearing a pillowcase. ITS hilarious.

okay, bye :) just inbox me if you wanna talk ;)

this is mikailah. shes amazing. after dressing up, and after our costumes are ruined. hahah.

ITS true

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